Today was cheer compition, the girls did their best and that's all that matters! Leahona put in a lot of time to earn their first and that's great for them! Taylor and Porter came and helped me out a TON! After I took them for a treat at Micky D's.
Hannah and I finally hung out with Dlyan! We went and just had a chill night playing at a park and walking around walmart. Haha, I was not happy with one of the mangers cause I needed glue and he wouldn't let me go get it due to them waxing the floor, I could put more detail into how mad he made me cause he was rude. But I wont.
Last night was slow at work so I didn't have to go in :), instead I got to go up to SL with Hannah, Meilne and Jake Toton. It was fun haha, for the most part. Kinda a mess but o well. Dlyans band was good, but Meine didn't like it so she and Jake stayed outside most of the time (it was screemo)We couldn't find RedWood Road and Jake was only getting us more lost, he did it again when we were leaving. And he refused to ask for directions. Once I called my dad and asked witch directiong ( N, S, E, or W) RedWood was I was able to find the place. Then while we were up there Blake txted me and wanted to hang out, so I had to ask Dlyan what the plan was so that I could give Blake an answer. And that took forever cause Dlyan is ADD! haha. I also snapped at Hannah :( cause I didn't want to go party with them, and she was "Brittanying" me. I felt bad :(. But we're okydoky! :) Any way all the plans fell threw so me Hannah and Meilne made brownies and watched house bunny. Then at like 3 or 4 Steph Cox called me saying how much she appricates me and loves me. And that I should totally come see her in Boston! Haha, I love it! :) I love her! I love life right now!
We also all went and got our belly buttons peirced!! It hurt SO bad! But it's so cute! :) I added Mike on facebook just to say hi and see how he's doing, IDK why I can't get him off my mind. I forgot how cute he was also! haha. But we haven't talked since. SO IDK lol. hmmmm other than that life's amazing! :)
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
Credits...
Okay, well not sure where I left off. My last blog was kinda vague. But I'll start with Friday, I'm pretty sure that was the last day. I got up around 1 then went shopping with Brianne, I got two cute pairs of Sandles, an adorable shirt, and a cute hat! Ran to Merit and picked out the design that Stephany C. and I are going to put on the girls shorts, then went to the mall with Hannah.
At the mall I got a call from Parker asking to hang out, then shortly after his mother called looking for him. I called him back trying to talk some sense into him, but it didn't work. After Hannah got her applications turned in and we did some window shopping, Arbys, then home till Brianne and the gang (Ondy, BryAnn, and Brianna) got to Bri's for marshmallows and a sleep over. While we were waiting Hannah messaged my back cause Thursday night we had gone tumbling and I was sore. That reminds me, Thursday night we (Hannah, Brandond, Cole, and I) all stayed up late talking about religion. It was one of the best nights of my life. Thoes boy's are simply amazing!
So then I went over to Briannes where I met up with the girls. I missed them so much! It's been much to long since High School. But even tho we've all grown and developed our lives, we're still the same caring genuine girls we've always been. It was so nice to catch up with them. They astound me! Ondy was telling us about her current boy friend, Eric (who I've known since High School), and how sweet and caring he his. I tried not to bring Austin into it, or really any of my ex's their all so sweet to me, I'm such a hard person to date haha.
Eric takes such good care of her, when ever she's stressed he'll 'bake' her stresses away, so to speak. And they go running every night, then stay up talking on the phone. He'll even read scriptures with her some times, because he can't concentrate at his place. One day he came and helped her changed the car battery during his lunch break, after they had kinda gotten in an arugement the night before. He really is perfect, and I'm pritty sure that they are going to get married, Ondy's concerned tho because he didn't serve a mission and her mother's made it a point to her that she doesn't approve of that. OKAY I'm sorry! But that drives me CRAZY, and that's why I can't stand Mormons! She could do FAR worse off, with even a return missionary. And not much better with any one elts in this world.
So I made it a point to tell Ondy that she shouldn't worry about it, and fallow her hart. She's been this amazing girl all threw high school. Fallowed all the rules and worked her ASS off! She's graduating early with an associates! She is in by curfew, she has a curfew and she's 18?! She does all her jobs, earns and budgets her own money! And I thought I was an angel...LORD!
Then there's BryAnn doing her home work on a Friday night and got up in the morning for study group! And Brianne is her sweet thoughtful, understanding self. Caring always about her friends, I love these girls, truly! Their should be more of them in the world.
So then Saturday was uneventfull just work, but Jakie said something that made me LMAO! When the new coke kept dropping tot's claiming it was Jakie making him nervous, she responded: I must make a lot of men nervous, tot's aren't the only thing their dropping around me!! hahahahahahahahaha that coming from sweet Jakies mouth shocked me! She's the most innocent, caring, church going lady I know! Then when I got home and checked my space Hannah's friend Ryon added me, it was strange...
No you're fine! No biggy. It's not like I lied to her? I just... Idk. I thought she'd get all pist off about it when i told her so I didn't bother. So, I figured either way she'd be upset about it. I just didn't want to deal with any of it at all. I've had so much shit goin' on! School school school... Money... School school school... Etc.
It's going good though. I'm loving it.
Hm, I don't think she'd freak out about it. I think she'd understand... IDK you're life, your choice. Money is hard to come by these days, except when you make bank in tips! ;)! haha. You have a job out there?
(his reply was asked to be delted cause it had his number)
Sunday I worked then stayed up all night with Hannah Studying and watching TV. She decided that she might try to get into SDU with me :))))! That would be awesome! We looked up everything we need, tests and all that and the dates! We're cruzing to our dreams.
So then I had school, got home, napped, & cheer. It was more or less frustrating. We had girls sick up the wazo, mouthy ones, and none of their heads where in the game, so we pulled in and just talked to end on a good note. Hopefully Wednesday will be better, competitions Saturday! Dinner, then off to Chraisma where it was a much better day. Two of the girls got their roundoff back tucks. Landon, Cherity, and the other two girls almost got their frunt ariles. Nikki almost has a side arile by herself. And every ones so self motivated and hard working. I love it there! After I took care of some bussness (getting messages for cheer's awards) and then picked up grandma for Ice cream, then she invited me in for some tea. So today was a good day, this week was a good one. And theirs more to come! :)
At the mall I got a call from Parker asking to hang out, then shortly after his mother called looking for him. I called him back trying to talk some sense into him, but it didn't work. After Hannah got her applications turned in and we did some window shopping, Arbys, then home till Brianne and the gang (Ondy, BryAnn, and Brianna) got to Bri's for marshmallows and a sleep over. While we were waiting Hannah messaged my back cause Thursday night we had gone tumbling and I was sore. That reminds me, Thursday night we (Hannah, Brandond, Cole, and I) all stayed up late talking about religion. It was one of the best nights of my life. Thoes boy's are simply amazing!
So then I went over to Briannes where I met up with the girls. I missed them so much! It's been much to long since High School. But even tho we've all grown and developed our lives, we're still the same caring genuine girls we've always been. It was so nice to catch up with them. They astound me! Ondy was telling us about her current boy friend, Eric (who I've known since High School), and how sweet and caring he his. I tried not to bring Austin into it, or really any of my ex's their all so sweet to me, I'm such a hard person to date haha.
Eric takes such good care of her, when ever she's stressed he'll 'bake' her stresses away, so to speak. And they go running every night, then stay up talking on the phone. He'll even read scriptures with her some times, because he can't concentrate at his place. One day he came and helped her changed the car battery during his lunch break, after they had kinda gotten in an arugement the night before. He really is perfect, and I'm pritty sure that they are going to get married, Ondy's concerned tho because he didn't serve a mission and her mother's made it a point to her that she doesn't approve of that. OKAY I'm sorry! But that drives me CRAZY, and that's why I can't stand Mormons! She could do FAR worse off, with even a return missionary. And not much better with any one elts in this world.
So I made it a point to tell Ondy that she shouldn't worry about it, and fallow her hart. She's been this amazing girl all threw high school. Fallowed all the rules and worked her ASS off! She's graduating early with an associates! She is in by curfew, she has a curfew and she's 18?! She does all her jobs, earns and budgets her own money! And I thought I was an angel...LORD!
Then there's BryAnn doing her home work on a Friday night and got up in the morning for study group! And Brianne is her sweet thoughtful, understanding self. Caring always about her friends, I love these girls, truly! Their should be more of them in the world.
So then Saturday was uneventfull just work, but Jakie said something that made me LMAO! When the new coke kept dropping tot's claiming it was Jakie making him nervous, she responded: I must make a lot of men nervous, tot's aren't the only thing their dropping around me!! hahahahahahahahaha that coming from sweet Jakies mouth shocked me! She's the most innocent, caring, church going lady I know! Then when I got home and checked my space Hannah's friend Ryon added me, it was strange...
Goll I couldn't figure out how to comment you!! lol stupid!!!
What you been up to Brittany??
Haha, so how'd you figure it out?? Ummmmm just working, school, coaching, meeting lots of adored people. Anything any college girl would be doing. You? ... Can I ask why you added me?
Cause I'm smart! =) haha
Idk why I did... I'll delete ya if it's such a big deal??
Where ya going to school? And for what? Coaching what?
Idk why I did... I'll delete ya if it's such a big deal??
Where ya going to school? And for what? Coaching what?
I didn't say it was a big deal, just a little odd. Provo Community for a degree Medical Assisting; so that I can get a real job to pay for the rest of Medical School. I coach Cheer and Tumbling. Sooo can I ask what you're deal is with Hannah?? You don't have to answer and I will (regardless of your thoughts) keep it confidential.
Ooh that's awesome! Hope it all works out for ya!
Hannah just got toooo attached. I didn't want to deal with the girlfriend stuff while I'm at school and not home. Know what I mean?
Yea, entirely. But why couldn't you just tell her that? IDK I just don't understand why people don't tell the truth any more. I guess it's not my place, really it's not. Sorry for my intrusion. Thanks, how's school working out for you?Hannah just got toooo attached. I didn't want to deal with the girlfriend stuff while I'm at school and not home. Know what I mean?
No you're fine! No biggy. It's not like I lied to her? I just... Idk. I thought she'd get all pist off about it when i told her so I didn't bother. So, I figured either way she'd be upset about it. I just didn't want to deal with any of it at all. I've had so much shit goin' on! School school school... Money... School school school... Etc.
It's going good though. I'm loving it.
Hm, I don't think she'd freak out about it. I think she'd understand... IDK you're life, your choice. Money is hard to come by these days, except when you make bank in tips! ;)! haha. You have a job out there?
(his reply was asked to be delted cause it had his number)
Sunday I worked then stayed up all night with Hannah Studying and watching TV. She decided that she might try to get into SDU with me :))))! That would be awesome! We looked up everything we need, tests and all that and the dates! We're cruzing to our dreams.
So then I had school, got home, napped, & cheer. It was more or less frustrating. We had girls sick up the wazo, mouthy ones, and none of their heads where in the game, so we pulled in and just talked to end on a good note. Hopefully Wednesday will be better, competitions Saturday! Dinner, then off to Chraisma where it was a much better day. Two of the girls got their roundoff back tucks. Landon, Cherity, and the other two girls almost got their frunt ariles. Nikki almost has a side arile by herself. And every ones so self motivated and hard working. I love it there! After I took care of some bussness (getting messages for cheer's awards) and then picked up grandma for Ice cream, then she invited me in for some tea. So today was a good day, this week was a good one. And theirs more to come! :)
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Things have turned up.
Well the next day was a much better day. All I remember from it thoe was staying up all night (7 am) at Coles apparent with Brandon, Hannah, and Blake. WHO is SO cute, and extremely quiet (Brandon told him I say that to every one, not true haha) That morning I slept for a bit then got to work an hour early. When I ran into Brianne who had just gotten back for spring break, we chatted for a while. After work I went on a long drive just to think. Then Sunday another sleep in day I wasn't feeling well and Jose finished my shift for me. After being tanterised by Stephs brother in Law Nick who found out about one of the nights I regret:
And then asked on a date, refused him. And then he threatened to kill me, I told him to stay the Fuck away and I'm going to the cops. He said he was sorry and he only has a crush on me, he really is sorry and will leave me along. blahblahblah. Brianne and I went on a long walk to Ondys house chatted with her for a while, the headed home. After Hannah called I went over to her place and we looked at peoples crap on my-space. It saddens me how fake people are :(. And then I relised that I wasn't being any better than the people I cannot stand in this world. So I sent Scot a txt, he responded again deflecting any of his fault (I'll put the conversation up later). I sent back calling him out on it all, he didn't respond. But then left a comment on my face book status:
I just want to know if rhere's any real people left in this world, besides myself.
Scot-no one is perfect sometimes to them they are being real as they can be. not everyone is as amazing as you are britt.
IDK what thats supposed to mean, but it sounds to me like a stab...jerk. Any way after not sleeping at all I went to school at 10, and ran some more erinds. Cheer at 3-5:30 coaching, then work. ANother trip to walmart, die my hair, home work, make posters, sleep at 5. Missed school :( and got woken up by Steph calling me for the posters. Ate some breakfast and headed to school to make up my work. When I watched Philadelphia witch is one of the most amazing movies I've ever seeen! I'll put up my response once I get it back from my professor, Lara. More work, nap then a sleep over with Brianne! O how I've missed her!! AND guess who came over for a bit :) Blake :)) HES SO CUTE! But to damn quite. Ha so then I went to cheer where my girls made tremendous improvement and I've just finished up loading their photos/ videos for the banquet. Now I'm off this damn computer.
Friday, April 9, 2010
What a day
Produtive day:
Wednesday was a very good day! Such nice weather, & good buieness at work. I fit into a shirt I out grew 2 years ago. Nailed my mock interview (hopefully that will help my grade since I've been absent so much!). And felt pritty confident about my final in Med. Insurance. When I got home, the boys and I tried to find some where to go swimming, didn't happen. I decided it was time for a nap since I had getten up at 4 am (by the way took me 2 hours to find something to wear for my mock interview). Once I was up from my nap it was time for some streching then off to work. At work I trained a new employ. I think I did well :) haha. I also got a txt from Scot saying :
There I did it, I did it for you.
If I hadn't gotten a txt from Hannah saying that Scot txted her I would have no clue what he was talking about. Then I might have let curiosity get the better of me and broke my rool about not txting him back. After work I went over to Hannahs and talked for a bit. Just have to add, I love her bed! haha. She read me the txt from Scot. And he was right, it didn't change a thing. But only because he didn't want it to. All his txt where self rightous. He didn't accept and of his own responibility, but justified his reasionings. He's SUCH A CAD!
Besides the point wasn't for him to do it for me. What's the point of learning from people if you're not going to make the change? He only did it to prove to me that it wasn't going to change anything. And the reason it didn't change anything is cause of his addiction to being right!!! This does makes sence... IE haha. He didn't do it for the right reasons, and the summ of it didn't equal the dividend. Either way, it shows me that he hasn't changed. He still wants to be right. And he's still going to treat me like he's most important. Not good, even in a friend ship. So I'm still done with him. If he really cares about me, even as a friend, he'll be as persistant as I was. But like I said before, I doubt that will happen. He's to selfish about his own feeling, thoughts, and opinions.
Well after waking up at 2 in the afrnoon:
I missed a finnal. I know I know. Then I just sat there and balled for an hour missing Austin. Damn, I thought I was over it. Finally got myself together and got ready for the day. Ate some breakfast while being interigated about my driving record and all my tickets (but mom wouldn't give me an exsplnation). Then spent a long after noon running erinds: Sonic.. pick up check and prit of mothers' been asking me for. Bank..then to pay my cell phone bill. Ran back home to pick up some stuff and give mom the print off, and found out enfurating news.
Sheridan (who's down in St. George, or Vegas according to myspace) got caught driving a males car, speeding, with out her licence. But guess who's name is on the ticket, MINE!!!!!!!! As if that didn't piss me off enough. Mom and Dad accually want me to take it on for her, cause it's going to cost to much if she confesses. RIGHT, make her get a job and pay for it. You made me pay for all my shit in high school, they have let her off with her responibilities and she's not learning. I'm not taking the hit for it, it stay's on my record for the next 5 years. I was pissed!!! ANYWAY...
I got this hair remover and it gave me a rash. Spilled my exspenve body oil I just bought, then decided to hit the mall. I couldn't find any pant that weren't skinnies and torn. Except the $80 from Dillards. Then KC had to cancil cause he had a wedding at work. And I had a head ace.
So to say the least, I've had better days. Hopefully tommarrows one of them.
Wednesday was a very good day! Such nice weather, & good buieness at work. I fit into a shirt I out grew 2 years ago. Nailed my mock interview (hopefully that will help my grade since I've been absent so much!). And felt pritty confident about my final in Med. Insurance. When I got home, the boys and I tried to find some where to go swimming, didn't happen. I decided it was time for a nap since I had getten up at 4 am (by the way took me 2 hours to find something to wear for my mock interview). Once I was up from my nap it was time for some streching then off to work. At work I trained a new employ. I think I did well :) haha. I also got a txt from Scot saying :
There I did it, I did it for you.
If I hadn't gotten a txt from Hannah saying that Scot txted her I would have no clue what he was talking about. Then I might have let curiosity get the better of me and broke my rool about not txting him back. After work I went over to Hannahs and talked for a bit. Just have to add, I love her bed! haha. She read me the txt from Scot. And he was right, it didn't change a thing. But only because he didn't want it to. All his txt where self rightous. He didn't accept and of his own responibility, but justified his reasionings. He's SUCH A CAD!
Besides the point wasn't for him to do it for me. What's the point of learning from people if you're not going to make the change? He only did it to prove to me that it wasn't going to change anything. And the reason it didn't change anything is cause of his addiction to being right!!! This does makes sence... IE haha. He didn't do it for the right reasons, and the summ of it didn't equal the dividend. Either way, it shows me that he hasn't changed. He still wants to be right. And he's still going to treat me like he's most important. Not good, even in a friend ship. So I'm still done with him. If he really cares about me, even as a friend, he'll be as persistant as I was. But like I said before, I doubt that will happen. He's to selfish about his own feeling, thoughts, and opinions.
Well after waking up at 2 in the afrnoon:
I missed a finnal. I know I know. Then I just sat there and balled for an hour missing Austin. Damn, I thought I was over it. Finally got myself together and got ready for the day. Ate some breakfast while being interigated about my driving record and all my tickets (but mom wouldn't give me an exsplnation). Then spent a long after noon running erinds: Sonic.. pick up check and prit of mothers' been asking me for. Bank..then to pay my cell phone bill. Ran back home to pick up some stuff and give mom the print off, and found out enfurating news.
Sheridan (who's down in St. George, or Vegas according to myspace) got caught driving a males car, speeding, with out her licence. But guess who's name is on the ticket, MINE!!!!!!!! As if that didn't piss me off enough. Mom and Dad accually want me to take it on for her, cause it's going to cost to much if she confesses. RIGHT, make her get a job and pay for it. You made me pay for all my shit in high school, they have let her off with her responibilities and she's not learning. I'm not taking the hit for it, it stay's on my record for the next 5 years. I was pissed!!! ANYWAY...
I got this hair remover and it gave me a rash. Spilled my exspenve body oil I just bought, then decided to hit the mall. I couldn't find any pant that weren't skinnies and torn. Except the $80 from Dillards. Then KC had to cancil cause he had a wedding at work. And I had a head ace.
So to say the least, I've had better days. Hopefully tommarrows one of them.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Bye bye
So neer the end of work Scot came in and talked to me while I closed. Then I went over to Hannah's cause she saved me some deviled eggs from dinner :) what a sweet thoughtfull friend she is! :) haha. I told her how Scot came into work and she went off about how she thinks about him on a daily bases, and she really just wants to know what she ever did to him. I told her to send him a txt with all her feelings and thoughts. She sent him like 9 or so cause he wasn't responding. But he was txting me back about our plans for Monday, even tho he knew I was going to her house. We watched Sweet Home Alabama, what a cute movie! And then I went home to get some sleep. Just before I went to sleep Scot decided to ask me what all the txt from Hannah was about. I told him:
I don't want to get in the middle of it, you're both being very good to me about it all. But she has a very very valid point. None's asking you to be her friend, just give her the truth. I don't care if you think people can't handle the truth, it's ALWAYS best. (or something along thoes lines)
He said it wasn't going to change anything.
NO ONE FREAKING said it had to! How in the hell does he know that?! He dosen't know SHIT about people! He secludes himself from the world!! That's another thing I cannot stand about him, it's always just him and I... or our families. I want to be able to meet people, experience things, and if a boy doesn't want to do that with me then top reason not to date him.
So I told him that I was leaving everything in his hand. Thank you for showing me that all males are the same, know it alls. And that I want NOTHING to do with them as fare a marriage goes. And that it wouldn't be hard for me to say good bye to him, since he's no difference than the others. Little did I know Hannah had txted him saying grow some fucking balls or your going to lose her.
The next day (Monday) didn't go well either. After telling me that he had the whole day free, he yet AGAIN had something to do, OOO but he wanted me to come with him. WTF?! Why does my opinion not matter?! I don't want to go to a dinner at your friends parents house where the mother is a physico who hates my family. But no, it's what he wanted to do. And it was more important. SO he decided that he'd meet me after 7, what ever fine I had shit to get done any way. 7 rools around and no word from Scot.
"sorry we haven't eaten yet we just made the food, this is why I wanted you to come."
This wasn't in our agenda, it's not what I wanted to do. I'm not comfortable with it. And I don't mean to sound selfish but it's a repetitious paturn, and I'm so done with it. I made other plans and ditched him. I went to a movie with Hannah and Cole. Cole is such a stress reliever, he just gets things. He knows how this world works. But for some reason, I'm not attached to him in any emotional matter.
Is there something wrong with me? Why do I always find myself attracted to the screw ups? That's not true always... maybe it's why I was so in love with Austin, cause he was the closest thing to normal I had interested in. It's like a family trait, all the women back to my mothers mom got married to mentals. Grandma's friends aren't even very close to sanity. Love that women to death, but she just can't pick them. It's like out need to help the world or something, lost souls you know?? I remember how mad Austin would make me, other the littlist things that showed me he was like my father. I think that's my greatest fear, endeing up like my mom and dad. I definitely have male security issues, among being an independent female.
Any way, the rest of the night went well and it was nice to be around sain people. Altho Hannah laughs at goor...odd girl. And I've decided I'm going to stop talking to Scot, I don't know any one in this world I fight with more often. He's shown me how not worth it I am to him, so I'm going to leave him with a tast of his own medicine. Frankly I don't think he will care, all the more easy this will be. I'm not going to come craweling back like I did before. Even a retard don't burn it's hand 3 times. Besides acording to Camron he's got another 'babe', what a player. Guess I can't be talking... I haven't told him the hole truth about Cole. OR Brandon... yea... OPS. I just didn't feel like it was something I could talk to him about.
ANYWAY, I'd say this is all just me. But I can have normal friend ships and don't freek out at others like I do him. So it's obvious our chemistry just aint flying. I've got a life to live so I'm saying peace.
Sotoday after getting to bed around 3, 6 am awake. school at 8. Home by 11. Eat, chat, naps, work. AND a movie with my little siblings. Gots to love my family, well 98% of them. Now I'm going to study for a final, and get my but to bed! Latter cyber world.
I don't want to get in the middle of it, you're both being very good to me about it all. But she has a very very valid point. None's asking you to be her friend, just give her the truth. I don't care if you think people can't handle the truth, it's ALWAYS best. (or something along thoes lines)
He said it wasn't going to change anything.
NO ONE FREAKING said it had to! How in the hell does he know that?! He dosen't know SHIT about people! He secludes himself from the world!! That's another thing I cannot stand about him, it's always just him and I... or our families. I want to be able to meet people, experience things, and if a boy doesn't want to do that with me then top reason not to date him.
So I told him that I was leaving everything in his hand. Thank you for showing me that all males are the same, know it alls. And that I want NOTHING to do with them as fare a marriage goes. And that it wouldn't be hard for me to say good bye to him, since he's no difference than the others. Little did I know Hannah had txted him saying grow some fucking balls or your going to lose her.
The next day (Monday) didn't go well either. After telling me that he had the whole day free, he yet AGAIN had something to do, OOO but he wanted me to come with him. WTF?! Why does my opinion not matter?! I don't want to go to a dinner at your friends parents house where the mother is a physico who hates my family. But no, it's what he wanted to do. And it was more important. SO he decided that he'd meet me after 7, what ever fine I had shit to get done any way. 7 rools around and no word from Scot.
"sorry we haven't eaten yet we just made the food, this is why I wanted you to come."
This wasn't in our agenda, it's not what I wanted to do. I'm not comfortable with it. And I don't mean to sound selfish but it's a repetitious paturn, and I'm so done with it. I made other plans and ditched him. I went to a movie with Hannah and Cole. Cole is such a stress reliever, he just gets things. He knows how this world works. But for some reason, I'm not attached to him in any emotional matter.
Is there something wrong with me? Why do I always find myself attracted to the screw ups? That's not true always... maybe it's why I was so in love with Austin, cause he was the closest thing to normal I had interested in. It's like a family trait, all the women back to my mothers mom got married to mentals. Grandma's friends aren't even very close to sanity. Love that women to death, but she just can't pick them. It's like out need to help the world or something, lost souls you know?? I remember how mad Austin would make me, other the littlist things that showed me he was like my father. I think that's my greatest fear, endeing up like my mom and dad. I definitely have male security issues, among being an independent female.
Any way, the rest of the night went well and it was nice to be around sain people. Altho Hannah laughs at goor...odd girl. And I've decided I'm going to stop talking to Scot, I don't know any one in this world I fight with more often. He's shown me how not worth it I am to him, so I'm going to leave him with a tast of his own medicine. Frankly I don't think he will care, all the more easy this will be. I'm not going to come craweling back like I did before. Even a retard don't burn it's hand 3 times. Besides acording to Camron he's got another 'babe', what a player. Guess I can't be talking... I haven't told him the hole truth about Cole. OR Brandon... yea... OPS. I just didn't feel like it was something I could talk to him about.
ANYWAY, I'd say this is all just me. But I can have normal friend ships and don't freek out at others like I do him. So it's obvious our chemistry just aint flying. I've got a life to live so I'm saying peace.
Sotoday after getting to bed around 3, 6 am awake. school at 8. Home by 11. Eat, chat, naps, work. AND a movie with my little siblings. Gots to love my family, well 98% of them. Now I'm going to study for a final, and get my but to bed! Latter cyber world.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Playing catch up
I haven't been home much. And the short time that I had access to a computer, wasn't enough to even right. So, lets see if I can recall the last 3 days as in deapth as I normally do, here goes nothing.
Thursday: (AW! This is hard already!) Okay, lets see. O yes, so I got up at the normal time and got to school on time. Sat threw debates on Adoption and Cloning. Next class corrected the quiz, didn't do as hot as I thought, but still not bad for completely guessing. Witch reminds me I have book work to do tonight. Did some more blood pressures and took off, I really hate that class the teacher is ridicules.
Pritty sure I slepts when I got home, but I think I'm missing something. I went to Chraisma, then I hung out with Hannah. We drove around, saw the 'Dylan' gang, took Alex home to Orem from work in here in Svill. I stayed at Hannah's for the night. I was completely out of it, but she was wide awake. Scot txted me saying that he couldn't sleep. Teasing I told him to come play with Hannah cause she was wide a wake and then I could sleep. haha cause she kept waking me up every time she had something to tell me. But it was okay we laughed a lot that night. You know when you get close enough to some one that you will allow you bodily functions to happen in the rudest manner? Well that night was one of those nights. The next morning Mom called in an uproar cause he husband was mad I had his car and he has to take the kids to school, even it though it wasn't for another hour. Either way I headed home, and went to bed (finally!).
Friday: Scot and I both slept in, so I didn't get to go take his blood. I got up, got in the shower, headed to cheer. Witch was frustrating cause almost every one was gone for spring break, and we have a performance when they get back. They are definitively not up to part with any thing to perform, maybe this will be a slap in the face for them and get their but's to practice! GRRR. So then I called Robert and got ready to go to dinner with him. We had a nice dinner and caught up. After we picked up Hannah, and chilled at my house for a bit. We played with the duck. Hannah was talking in duck to it hahahahaha! love that girl! After that we went and got a movie and watched it at her house.
It was the most rediculase movie ever! DON"T WATCH BROTHERS! SO lame. Hannah left to have a sleep over at Bradies, Robert dropped me off and I crashed.
Saturday/ Sunday: Up for a meeting at work by 9 am. Got ready for the day, went to Hannah's made a Birthday card for Cassidy. Then watched TV for the next 3 hours then work. Closed, and made good tips. Called Cassidy who was a Jakes with a ton of people and Lexi! I was so happy to see those girls! Hannah and I had fun in walmart for a bit. Got back to her place and braided hair, woke up cleaned the house and then I came back to get ready for work, and give my family their chocolate for my Easter to them. My boss txted me saying I didn't have to come in untill 4 so I came to hurry and catch this up! And now I am :) haha. Best go get ready for work now! :)
Thursday: (AW! This is hard already!) Okay, lets see. O yes, so I got up at the normal time and got to school on time. Sat threw debates on Adoption and Cloning. Next class corrected the quiz, didn't do as hot as I thought, but still not bad for completely guessing. Witch reminds me I have book work to do tonight. Did some more blood pressures and took off, I really hate that class the teacher is ridicules.
Pritty sure I slepts when I got home, but I think I'm missing something. I went to Chraisma, then I hung out with Hannah. We drove around, saw the 'Dylan' gang, took Alex home to Orem from work in here in Svill. I stayed at Hannah's for the night. I was completely out of it, but she was wide awake. Scot txted me saying that he couldn't sleep. Teasing I told him to come play with Hannah cause she was wide a wake and then I could sleep. haha cause she kept waking me up every time she had something to tell me. But it was okay we laughed a lot that night. You know when you get close enough to some one that you will allow you bodily functions to happen in the rudest manner? Well that night was one of those nights. The next morning Mom called in an uproar cause he husband was mad I had his car and he has to take the kids to school, even it though it wasn't for another hour. Either way I headed home, and went to bed (finally!).
Friday: Scot and I both slept in, so I didn't get to go take his blood. I got up, got in the shower, headed to cheer. Witch was frustrating cause almost every one was gone for spring break, and we have a performance when they get back. They are definitively not up to part with any thing to perform, maybe this will be a slap in the face for them and get their but's to practice! GRRR. So then I called Robert and got ready to go to dinner with him. We had a nice dinner and caught up. After we picked up Hannah, and chilled at my house for a bit. We played with the duck. Hannah was talking in duck to it hahahahaha! love that girl! After that we went and got a movie and watched it at her house.
It was the most rediculase movie ever! DON"T WATCH BROTHERS! SO lame. Hannah left to have a sleep over at Bradies, Robert dropped me off and I crashed.
Saturday/ Sunday: Up for a meeting at work by 9 am. Got ready for the day, went to Hannah's made a Birthday card for Cassidy. Then watched TV for the next 3 hours then work. Closed, and made good tips. Called Cassidy who was a Jakes with a ton of people and Lexi! I was so happy to see those girls! Hannah and I had fun in walmart for a bit. Got back to her place and braided hair, woke up cleaned the house and then I came back to get ready for work, and give my family their chocolate for my Easter to them. My boss txted me saying I didn't have to come in untill 4 so I came to hurry and catch this up! And now I am :) haha. Best go get ready for work now! :)
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