I'm confused, glad. Last night I told Hannah that I would finally get up and go on our hike that we've been longing for. Her idea: walk around enjoying nature. Mine: Submerge yourself in natures challenge, and conquer it. Provo canyon has some fun, and simple, free handed rock climbing places.
We agreed on hers. I asked her what time, and how long. She was angery... I don't understand. How is planning it out so wrong?
"It's not going to be fun if we put a time limit on it"
"I'm confused, it's a stress reliever for me to have it planned out... make it happen in my head first, then for real, yea know?"
I wasn't trying to up set her. I don't understand why it was so upsetting to her. I mean, I know we all have our own way's of getting things done in life, but why am I ridiculed- or that's what it feels like. I never once told her way's that she should do things. She's given me so much advice, of witch I'm grateful for. I always try to keep my opinions to myself, I never want to upset any one.
We we're shopping. She was attached to a simple graphic 'Throw- down' T - shirt. Another thing I don't understand, she's so against fighting... and that's all Throw- down is about. Maybe I am missing something in the world, but I don't want to ever be anything but every bit of me.
The T-shirt was about $ 30, give or take. And she begged for my in-put: It's a T, to me I'd NEVER spend that much in a T. But if it's worth it to you, and you'll wear it. THEN GET IT.
That mad her mad too...
"You make me feel so stupid! (as she walks out the store)"
.... I really don't understand. Maybe you we're looking for encouragement, but that's not what you asked for- witch was my opinion.
I was reading, Utopia. A traveler was praised by his friend who's opinion was that he should serve a king, why with all his knowledge he could do good to the country. But the traveler knew that kings, and royals seek no ones advice:
"...And among the ministers of princes, there are none that are not so wise as to need no assistance, or at least that do not think themselves so wise that they imagine they need none; and if they court any, it is only those for whom the prince has much personal favor, whom by their fawnings and flatteries they endeavor to fix to their own interests: and indeed Nature has so made us that we all love to be flattered, and to please ourselves with our own notions. The old crow loves his young, and the ape her cubs. Now if in such a court, made up of persons who envy all others, and only admire themselves, a person should but propose anything that he had either read in history or observed in his travels, the rest would think that the reputation of their wisdom would sink, and that their interest would be much depressed, if they could not run it down: and if all other things failed, then they would fly to this, that such or such things pleased our ancestors, and it were well for us if we could but match them. They would set up their rest on such an answer, as a sufficient confutation of all that could be said, as if it were a great misfortune, that any should be found wiser than his ancestors; but though they willingly let go all the good things that were among those of former ages, yet if better things are proposed they cover themselves obstinately with this excuse of reverence to past times. I have met with these proud, morose, and absurd judgments of things in many places, particularly once in England."
In this society, it's every person. I don't think theirs one right or wrong, just matters of cooping. And that's why I try to hold my tong, it's not worth the offense they'll being to you- more often than not, it's not going to change them any way. I'll just converse when we can agree. I'm afraid to talk to much. I'm afraid of flaws, silly right- every one has them.
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