An Asundered life

These feelings of inferiority, they are intoxicating. They evoke my intolerance.

I question..Not everything said is truth, and not every truth is said.

I beg for salvation from my soul; because if anything can help, it will be you.

Contiplation

My feet can barley with stand dragging my soul to the places it longs to know. These familiar places and faces, retain me like a chain to the floor. And I cannot tell witch one is a sacrifice, I am eager to be long, but it is true what they say about the absence making the heart grow fonder. So I am stuck, in contemplation; hoping that time will tell me, and I will rightly listen. One day I will travel, but today I am building memories. I will not settle for less, but where is perfect?

"dedication is imagination blended with dedication" - Brittany Castleton

Life and Loath

Like does not mean love, friendliness is not flirting. I'm tired of watching despicable love, what ever happened to real chemistry? Where love is an amiable admiration of another charterer. I seek to never be blinded in love, but allow my heart to harmonize with my heads logic. My expectations are not un-real, simly un-fulfilled.
"Don't let yesterdays disappointments overshadow tomorrows dreams"

Endeavor; lifes agenda

I am not a writer, I am a poet. My characteristics are implicit of dreaming, and creatively composing (or manipulating) English literature. Unfortunately I am still a stewardess to society, and that requires me to have concise communication.
There's somethings I'd like to be in life, thus there are accommodations that need to me met. It would pleasure me to be certain of the life I lead, and the society in witch I live. I'm not a feminist, just uninterested. There is a general lack of appeal in the civilization that surrounds me. Mostly due to the fact that I have a un-candid out look on life, that it is -or should be- self explanatory. Obviously not the general, or normal.
My mind is lacking aperture, while my soul holds an un-yielding infatuation.. I am a walking contradiction.    

Pleasant tendency's

What a lovely week. Watched the beautiful dancers of Chraisma studio (and performed) at the spring recital. Got to enjoy nature with Taylor and Rachel, while discussing religion and politics. Spent time with Stephanie Cox and Brianne Graves; two people who have been so extremely influential to my character. Had so many moments to develop my personality, and find more inspiration in life in school and at work. Then realizing the tendency of my in inherited personality threw late night discussions with Ceil DeYoung, aka grandma. Had a BBQ with the children. Pleasantly put up with a blind date, thanks to Marc Maughan. And had a beautiful twitter tribute from my wifey, Kez : Brittany Castleton your truly are my wife. I love how much I can trust you. <3 (not to mention our date at Barnes and Noble reading in the cafe!)




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platter, glitsening reflections.

I've come to the conclusion that my life is in desperate need of change. Not thecurrent suddle changes (altho they have been plesant) but my spirit is in critial condition for something abrupt. I've had my dose of medicine to cure this home sickness, and it's new perscription is something muchstronger.. life that will stair straight in to the eye's of my soul, and cure all that is corrup. Perhaps it would be possible if reality wasn't such a disenchantment. Soon enough, my breath will no longer be held; rather a steady in-hale ex-hale.

Social skills

Jannet's been in the gym this week, and I thought I'd end up quitting. But it's actually been a supper positive experiences. Example, today she brought up the fact that because Amanda and I are both young we don't have a full comprehension of social skills. We had both mentioned to her that she was intimidating to us, and she explained how we could have re-phrased it with a possatave spin. This is something I think I was in self-denial about, although I'm not the worst in the world, I obviously have some serious improvement to make.
I also tend to think that it has to do more with the social skills I was exposed to growing up, my mother was extremely blunt, and my father lacked in expression/ communication... period. Either way, I'm grateful she genuinely pointed it out. I'm definitely going to add exercise sentence structure to my list of goals to achieve. It will better me in work, as an employee, with my peers, family, and academically as a student.
Monday I went on a hike with Taylor and his adorable new girl friend, Rachael. Basically it goes like this, Kez is my soul and Taylor is my other half. There isn't any other people on this earth that complete me, motivate me, relate with me, and inspire me so singularly than those to do. They are both extremely brilliant, sincere, and have excellent comprehension as well as expression.. I envy them, and aspire to be them.
I love my grandma, we can have civil discussion.. something I long to have with my parents. I'm also starting to comprehend the cycle of society. life is basically thrilling!